Work Horse

It's Thursday already- T-G-I-F-F-R. Thank God It's Friday For Real! I can't wait until the weekend, I feel like I'm going insane over here! Work is work. End of quarter is coming up next week and I do all the returns... everyone of course waits until the last second to get stuff repaired and returned for credit. Makes my life misery!

Today was a rough one for sure. Right now I am chillin' in bed with the girls and we are watching The Lizzy MgGuire movie- love it!

So no one noticed the NEW LAY-OUT?! What?! I changed things up a little bit earlier at work when I was on the phone with someone. Shhh.. don't tell them!

Enough of that, what did I eat/do today?


Breakfast! nice and crispy waffles and sweet almond butter.. yummmmmmmm heaven!



My two snacks- and my tea bag.. another inspirational little blurb- I loved it. I am definitely a pretty compassionate person. I come across as crass, harsh, and politically incorrect but I care alot about everyone and am the first one in line to help an underdog. We should all take a step back and help someone else before we help ourselves once in a while and see how good we feel : )




My dinner! Sorry the pictures are backwards- stupid ass Blogger! I used my other piece of Mahi-Mahi, sprinkled with Gluten-free bread crumbs- seasoned with Italian spices.. sooooo yummy. I had them with Sweet Potato fries (channeling my meal from last week!) I love sweet potatoes!

What's this???? Is that the debris left by a tornado? A hurricane? Nooooo.. just two little girls without a care in the world who attend Camp Noni- led by a disabled old lady (my mother!!!)
I made them clean. I could feel my blood pressure go up every time I looked in there for the last two days and I was ready to flip! They earned their dessert though! Look!

Good job girls!! Love you cuties!

I did my workout for the day already. A 3 mile walk/jog/exhausted run/dead at the end workout at lunch. Then I came home and did 20 minutes of yoga. Yea I'm getting in my daily requirements still : )

Well, I've got to finish up my laundry.. I packed my lunch for tomorrow already, I'm prepared to get up early and work off the chocolate chip cookies I just ate!! I'll be checking with you ladies tomorrow!

Act Great

Yikes! Where did the day go??? I didn't really have a chance to do much today.. Wednesdays are a notoriously BUSY day at work. People have woken up from being hung over on Monday and Tuesday and are like, oh yea, I have stuff on my desk, let me clean it off!

I'm SO glad I'm not the only one who struggles with Blogger. If it wasn't for the ads on it (which.... are that way ----------------------------------------->) I would SOOOOOO be using Wordpress!

I'm just going to BREEZE right through these so I can make my lunch for tomorrow and go to bed!

After my disaster with my Vom-Meal the other day, I brought in my OWN oatmeal, complete with cinnamon and brown sugar.. YUM!
Snack was another Larabar- PB&J flavor, I have a slight obsession with those..


Lunch was canned salmon with dijon mustard. I put it on the last two slices of GF bread I had, plus with a slice of rice "cheese". It was tasty, a little dull, but hey I'm not going for glory here.. just simplicity!
Around 2:30 or so, I started getting really tired, cranky, and sad. I think my you know what is coming any day now, so this is to be expected. I took a walk and got some tea and dug out my snack- organic baby carrots. Crunchy and "watery" they woke me up for a few minutes.

I noticed this quote on my tea bag..

It reminded me to focus, get the rest of the day done, and be at peace with it. So I did.

This was my second snack because I was running around after work- so I needed something that would tide me over for a while. With 18g of protein, 4g of fiber, and 240 calories- this was a heavy but yummy "snack"/small meal.. whatever it was!
I had things to do after work, and I ended up getting home LATE. I was hungry and reached for the first thing I saw. One of these... holy delish. Never mind chock full of bad stuff. Sometimes, my family drives me nuts! lol Constantly food in the house I can't eat.. and I can't turn stuff like this down.

The girls went strawberry picking with my Mom today- they got a TON! I don't really eat strawberries because they make my mouth tingle, but Imma be eating these! Organic little yummy strawberries!!


Well I'm off to bed dears! I hope you all have a lovely night.. and I'll be checking in tomorrow as well, hopefully I'll have some time to comment back and email back and stuff like that!
Night!!!!! :D

Scheduling Problems

Holy crapola.. I'm watching America's Got Talent over here. What is wrong with people?!?! I'm sorry- but some people gotta check themselves wayyyyyyy before they wreck themselves.. um, on National Television?! But the secret performer in me really would love to be on that show! But some of these performances are incredible!

I spent some time tonight working on some dance moves, my big goal for the summer is to get ispired and do some more work-out videos for you guys..like I did here..

So today I was absolutely a big ole mess. Tired, cranky, tired, and cranky. I think that yesterday caught up with me! I was falling asleep waiting for the Peanut to get out of dance class. So I came home and ate my dinner, ran some errands, and here I am in bed- waiting for AGT to be over so I can HIT the sack HARD.

My eats for the day:


This is my gluten-free bread with Tofutti "cream cheese" and some raspberry preserves, a sweet and easy way to start the day..





SNACKS! Add in an Attune bar as well- and those are my snackies for the day. If it looks like I eat ALL day long, it's because I basically do. Also unpictured was a big bowl of my Sweet Potato soup I had yesterday.
** Slight interjection.. I FREAKIN' HATE BLOGGER! It is IMPOSSIBLE to easily upload pictures.. Blogger, you s**k!**


This was my dinner! I bought it at the grocery store earlier today, these are super easy to just heat in the microwave. And I was definitely looking for a quick dinner!
Dessert was more chocolate.. of course.. HAHA!

And I did get in somewhat of a workout- 30 minutes of Pilates this morning and some dance tonight!

So does anyone else have a rigid schedule when it comes to food? And it is a natural hunger cue or are you "hungry" because it's time to eat? Like for example, you eat a snack at 10:30 because.. that's snack time. And a snack at 3:30 because, it's snack time! And dinner at 7:15 because it's time? That's how I am most of the time, and everytime I try to switch it up or my schedule gets switched up, my body is like.. ohh hell no.. not doing this today to me!!!! (insert head bob and finger snapping here). Do you think that sometimes we just get into a schedule and then our body adjusts to that? Like for me today- at afteroon "snack time" I was on the phones, unable to reach behind me and get my snack. Dammmiiittttttttttt.... I wanted something!!!

Well. I'm off to bed. Let's try to have a non-tired and cranky day tomorrow, m'k? I think I bit a few people's heads off at work, I'll have to kiss some butt!!!!

Wide Awake

Holy mother of God, it's Monday again. I'm here watching the Real Housewives of NYC Reunion.. they are so catty and crazy. I love it! It's craziness! Does anyone else like these shows??
So I survived the rest of the weekend, have I told you guys that I decided to stop drinking coffee? Since Charlie left I've been relying on coffee more and more to get through the day.. because I've been so tired all the time, blah blah blah. I love coffee.. who am I kidding?! But I'm trying to quit!!!!! BLECH! I'm making the switch over to decaf, to more green tea, etc. So yesterday when I got home from church, I was SO tired, I took a 3 hour nap. Which led me to be awake until 4 AM last night! W-T-F?!?!?!?! ARGH!!!! I broke out my laptop, I watched TV, I read. I tossed and turned and nothing. I was awake. My mind was going a hundred miles an hour and it just wouldn't stop! By the time 1 a.m. I realized that it was A. too late to take one of my mom's Vicodin's to knock me out. Or a Tylenol PM - before you think I'm a druggie.. lol B. really going to be a long day on Monday.

But I'm here, I'm alive! By the way, my mom is too! She broke a bone in her foot and pulled some tendons. She's using a cane to get around with her foot wrapped up. I've been helping her out and so have the Peanut and my niece.. good job girls!!! Lol.

Thanks for all your well wishes for her!!!!

So here's what I ate today while I was in a work haze/coma/in the zone.... I thought I wouldn't make it!!!

Breakfast: Blueberry Muffin Instant Oatmeal. I bought this a couple of weeks ago and just am trying it now.. I didn't really like it.. I'm not a blueberry fan.. so I think if you REALLY like bloobs- this is good!

I will not include a picture of it though. It kind of resembled something that would come out of my stomach after drinking and eating pancakes at iHop after.. UM YEA. You know you've done it!
Snack & Lunch: An Attune bar, sweet potato soup, and carrots.. got my veggies in today!



Snack 2 & 3: Annie's Gluten-Free Bunnies and a Cliff Z-bar Chocolate Brownie flavor. I was channeling my inner child.. haha.. plus I needed a "sugar boost". HA!


I came home from work and immediately hit the yoga mat. I stretched my whole body and it felt SOOOO good! I did yoga for about 40 minutes and by the end of it, my legs were shaking, my whole body was sweaty and I was happy as a clam. Exhausted but good.
I made fish for dinner... drowning it in healthy canola oil, and dumping garlic salt, pepper, red pepper, cilantro, and lime juice. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... I loved this!!!! I love garlic! And this was fantastic! It sorta cleaned out my sinuses from the red pepper, but hey my sinus cavity is thanking me right now.

Dessert: CHOCOLATE!!!!! I broke off a hunk of it. Chocolate is good for you- especiallly dark chocolate!!! And I can't resist the call of chocolate- for real. I also randomly ate handfuls of cereal and a few tortilla chips and the end piece of bread in my bread loaf I have, with some margarine on it. Phew. A full days worth of eats.. haven't done that in long time!


Well, I shall meet up with you all tomorrow night, I've been commenting back and forth with some lovely people and I want you all to know, that even though we struggle sometimes.. we are all people who are worth more than the number on the scale.. We ARE!
*hugs to everyone*

The Hamburglar

Wow.. I can't believe all your comments guys.. ahem, gals.. I can't even begin to express how awesome it is to be among such awesome ladies in blog world. In this same scenario without my blog, I definitely would have been in shock for days before and after; after attempting a feat like, eating a burger.

I think the problem is, we have our fear foods. Some of us are anxious about eating pizza, or ice cream, or cake and can't be in situations where these foods are present. I suppose it's safe to say, burgers are my fear food. And I was craving one so bad... but it scared me to want one that bad.

To recap the comments I got..

Christina said, "The same goes for "splurges" of food - once in awhile is fine as long as you go back to healthy."

Katie said, "U do not have to WORRY about eating a burger and fries tonight at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Kate said, "if u have a craving and totally ignore it, you will just end up eating a lot of other random stuff that you dont even want"

Jessie said, "So I don't have any advise but HATE when this happens. I totally know how you're feeling"

Debbi said, "If you throw it a curve ball every once in awhile (not too often mind you), then you kick it into high gear and it started to burn the extra calories and kinda prepares for the extra calories the next day."

Sarah said, "Good for you for going out anyway"

Lauren said, "Having a burger once in a while won't kill you, it won't make you gain weight"

Gaunt Future (I'm sorry doll I don't know your name!) said, "I hope you enjoyed every bite and didn't get anxiety once :)"

Well. We went out and I ate the dang burger. Yep. I did it. Oh my stomach protested. I prepared myself though. I made sure to eat healthy all day long, tomato soup and veggies for lunch. Waffles and peanut butter for breakfast. And a Cliff Bar for a late snack around 4:30-5. At 6:30 we went out.. Mind you I DID wear my sweatpants for this! lol

But from the comments I did get before I left, I actually texted to myself (I don't have the Internet on my phone due to my cheapness) and read them before I even walked in the door and when I ordered my food. I got a burger. Without the cheese and mayo and with extra tomato and with sweet potato fries on the side. So I got my Vitamin C, A, Iron, and protein. That's what I kept telling myself. It's good for me. It's good for me. It's good for me.
I didn't finish the whole thing because I did want to save room for my "Happy Ending" sundae. Something about jail bait cute high school boys just makes me say "yes" to upgrading a sundae..


(the Peanut had Mac and Cheese!!!!)


BBQ sauce.. love love love..




We had our usual for ice cream.. soft serve vanilla for me and forbidden chocolate for the Peanut. I don't like cherries that much, so Peanut stole mine..

So in short, I'm proud of myself for not backing out of getting what I really wanted and proud that I didn't go home and jump on the treadmill, or beat myself up. Ok, I did a little bit, but it was legitimately about the fact that the ice cream was bothering my stomach. I was thinking, "why the fudge can't Friendly's make a dairy free soft serve ice cream and save my stomach and my skin?!?!" Soft serve vanilla ice cream is the only thing I would never turn down. Never. Ever.

And to all my blog friends, I thank you so much. All your comments mean so much to me..

Tomorrow is the last day of Sunday School for the Peanut so there is a "party" at church. I'm excited about going! I have to get up early and make sure I drive my mother there. While I was writing this post, I heard yells coming from downstairs. I'm glad even though I'm as blind as a bat, I hear EVERYTHING. My mother went outside in the rain, in her flip flops, to take the trash out, was coming back in the door and she slipped and fell in the doorway. I ran downstairs to find out what happened.. I thought it was the cat howling.. only to find my poor mom sprawled out on the back porch. My parents are at the hospital as we speak, my dad thinks my mom's foot is sprained.. The fun never stops around here!

Well darlings, have an awesome rest of the weekend, I'll check in tomorrow!!!

The Battle

Well it's FINALLY FRIDAY!!!!! I can't believe it, I'm SO happy for the weekend you guys have no idea! Well you might.. It's a double good time.. pay day and the weekend. I'm always happy on those days!

So today is the Peanut's LAST DAY of 2nd grade! I can't believe it! She's getting so big!!!! No seriously she is, I'm convinced she is already a full head taller than I was at that age!

So what to do.. what to do.. I am planning on taking her out tonight for dinner. Someplace cheap and quick and easy. My options are as follows: Red Robin, Five Guys and a Burger, Friendly's, or Picadilly Pub, or IHop. I don't want to go to "the Pic". It's definitely a townie spot, complete with crazy waitresses and too expensive for what you get food. Red Robin seems like a good idea. Since Monday I've been dreaming about a big huge burger for some reason. I won't share what else I dreamed about though.. it's too crazy!

This morning though, when I got my lazy butt up to workout- I reached for my Pilates DVD and instead ended up with Hip Hop Abs. A way, I suppose to burn a lot of calories in preparation for the burger tonight.

The whole time I was working out, my thoughts were consumed with ED thoughts. Move faster, don't rest in between sets.. Then at work, I sat here thinking to myself.. "how the hell am I going to be able to do this tonight? What was I thinking?". I haven't been out to eat in the longest time it seems like. I struggled with a nutrition calculator on the Red Robin website trying to get ONE of the burgers down to under 600 calories (when my starting point was 1200, I'd say, I'm on the right track!). But how do I not screw this up? How do I not panic in the middle of the restaurant and scare the Peanut? Should I put aside my craving and just get something I know I'd feel more comfortable eating like soup and salad? Wait, I hate salad. Soup and.... soup. It's like, I want a freakin burger, so why can't I just put aside my fears and just go for it???
Who else has had this happen? And what have you done if anything about it?
I did however, have a salmon burger last night. But it was in fear food rage when I first thought about taking the Peanut out to dinner. Maybe if I have this, it will quiet the urge to eat a burger...

No, try again. This is not going well today...

I'll let you know how I make out tomorrow..

We'll Have Fun, Fun, Fun

Happy Thursday to all, today is the BIG Audit day.. yesterday was just a prep! So I have my monkey suit on, ready to rock the Support world with my insane skills and ability to help customers out.

Yea right. And then I woke up!

But I do have my suit on today. And my fancy shoes.. I usually wear jeans and sneakers to work, so this is a challenge. It's harder to run down the hall to get a glass of water, I have slow down and strut. Lol, no I don't have to, but I do anyway!

Since I don't have a lot of time, I'll just get to it. I was so exhausted today, I failed to wake up in time to do my yoga, or anything else for that matter. I raced out the door, my eyes kinda bleary.. only woken up by my injection of coffee in the form of an-ultra fine powder. Seriously, if I could snort this stuff I would.

I forgot to snap a picture of my super yummy breakfast, but it looked kinda like my lunch yesterday.. (my tummy still hurts from my near accidental intestinal suicide yesterday..)

Delish! I hope to be having a giveaway again really really soon! So you might have a shot at winning some of those Justin's squeeze packs. I literally ripped it open and licked the wrapper clean. Nice image, no?



The cat is sick.. she has a massive ear infection... I legit feel REALLY bad for her. She has been testy lately (even more so than she usually is) and yesterday morning she was sitting with her left ear flat and her head tilted to one side.. I grabbed her and looked in her ear- there is was. Junk! Yuck! My dad took her to the vet.. she was so scared, it took three people (my dad, the vet, and a tech) to hold her down - plus she was bundled in a blanket. Kitty is FIERCE!!!!!! Hopefully she'll get better fast though!! She is certainly riding the sympathy train to fat-ville because she is complaining for food around the clock and I kept feeding her cuz I feel bad!
Peanut and I made corn muffins last night too.. I should clarify.. I made them, she licked the bowl clean.. But these, were delicious.. seriously.. the best ever since I went GF/DF..



I'll definitely be buying these again!

Well darlings, I'm off to finish up my work. Hopefully I don't get us all fired or something today.. Have an awesome Thursday.. I'll be checking in on all your bloggies later today!!!!!