Well it's FINALLY FRIDAY!!!!! I can't believe it, I'm SO happy for the weekend you guys have no idea! Well you might.. It's a double good time.. pay day and the weekend. I'm always happy on those days!
So today is the Peanut's LAST DAY of 2nd grade! I can't believe it! She's getting so big!!!! No seriously she is, I'm convinced she is already a full head taller than I was at that age!
So what to do.. what to do.. I am planning on taking her out tonight for dinner. Someplace cheap and quick and easy. My options are as follows: Red Robin, Five Guys and a Burger, Friendly's, or Picadilly Pub, or IHop. I don't want to go to "the Pic". It's definitely a townie spot, complete with crazy waitresses and too expensive for what you get food. Red Robin seems like a good idea. Since Monday I've been dreaming about a big huge burger for some reason. I won't share what else I dreamed about though.. it's too crazy!
This morning though, when I got my lazy butt up to workout- I reached for my Pilates DVD and instead ended up with Hip Hop Abs. A way, I suppose to burn a lot of calories in preparation for the burger tonight.
The whole time I was working out, my thoughts were consumed with ED thoughts. Move faster, don't rest in between sets.. Then at work, I sat here thinking to myself.. "how the hell am I going to be able to do this tonight? What was I thinking?". I haven't been out to eat in the longest time it seems like. I struggled with a nutrition calculator on the Red Robin website trying to get ONE of the burgers down to under 600 calories (when my starting point was 1200, I'd say, I'm on the right track!). But how do I not screw this up? How do I not panic in the middle of the restaurant and scare the Peanut? Should I put aside my craving and just get something I know I'd feel more comfortable eating like soup and salad? Wait, I hate salad. Soup and.... soup. It's like, I want a freakin burger, so why can't I just put aside my fears and just go for it???
Who else has had this happen? And what have you done if anything about it?
I did however, have a salmon burger last night. But it was in fear food rage when I first thought about taking the Peanut out to dinner. Maybe if I have this, it will quiet the urge to eat a burger...
No, try again. This is not going well today...
I'll let you know how I make out tomorrow..